Falling Off The Wagon Hurts

april 10 2007 12am

I am back in the usa. it has been a little over one week.

I am not doing too good at living what i know.

living from a place of spirit.

there are urges to seek gratification and pleasure....

it is so easy to fall of the wagon, so to speak.

so many temptations in the land of the free....america.

I desire to master myself within this system.

to rise above the temptations which limit my growth,

and abuse my power.

i give my power away too easily...to these temptations.

my mind is easily sucked into things such as the internet,

smoking, eating more than I need to, and buying things that I dont need.

a challenge is ahead of me.

a challenge to cleanse myself from limiting and controling mind patterns.....

...sometimes I think it would be easier if I had some help..some support.

but I know that I already have all of the support I need right within me...within the choices I make..

...not to mention the millions of spirits and angels,
and connection with the god within me, to call upon for support.