may 7, 2007: Being & Awareness

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If you do not Feel, how then could you feel Being? How would you really Know “Being”? Knowing comes from direct or indirect Experience. When you “feel” something, for example, you are Experiencing Feeling.

If you were able to go into your feelings completely, with all of your focus and attention, you would experience Being. There is an awareness behind the mental programming of our mental state. We are that awareness.

When all of my awareness is focused on Being, I exist as that which can be Felt....or, That which IS,......not as that which is perceived (judged), and not as an idea (in the mind). It is like moving my awareness from the mind, into the stillness. Into what IS.

I feel this is the end of the progression of material evolution. Evolution has been evolving into a more and more complete feeling of Being using the illusion of TIME...Time creates Being, as well as Feeling creates Being. If there was no TIME and there was no Feeling, there would be no Being. Its like Being needs an opposite in order to exist. There is “Being”, or “Awareness”...then there is the external world, there is feeling, experiencing, etc.

It feels like we are coming into a greater sense of Being. This Being is the only One & True existence. But then there is something behind this, a stillness. A non-being, non-existence.

The Ego, ¨Human Personalized Identity¨ re-creates itself through its unconscious Beliefs and ideas......instead of our awareness creating from Truth, or Inner Knowing.

This is where Education is so Important: It can impart higher and more truthful information which can be used for more empowered ideas and beliefs. Education allows for the power of the individual to emerge and develop and, If we each Knew who we ALL were, we would become LOVE and we would become PEACE........but we must first be Informed...in order to change our Beliefs, which in turn is creating our reality. When we are Informed, we are empowered with the Knowledge about how we create our reality....which leads to creating from a place of LOVE.

PEACE is not harming another, because you are aware that you ARE the other.

This understanding comes to earth through the active seeking of individuals. This feeling of Being, this Awareness is growing as the access to Truth-full Information grows.

Humanity is so different from the rest of life on earth because we developed the brain to jump outside of Being...so that we could come into a more full understanding of what Being is.....we developed a brain that could comprehend it. As the Information Age bridges the gaps between culture, religion, and language, we will come to the conclusion that we are all ONE , we are one huge family, and there is no separation except that which we create through our beliefs.

Falling Off The Wagon Hurts

april 10 2007 12am

I am back in the usa. it has been a little over one week.

I am not doing too good at living what i know.

living from a place of spirit.

there are urges to seek gratification and pleasure....

it is so easy to fall of the wagon, so to speak.

so many temptations in the land of the free....america.

I desire to master myself within this system.

to rise above the temptations which limit my growth,

and abuse my power.

i give my power away too easily...to these temptations.

my mind is easily sucked into things such as the internet,

smoking, eating more than I need to, and buying things that I dont need.

a challenge is ahead of me.

a challenge to cleanse myself from limiting and controling mind patterns.....

...sometimes I think it would be easier if I had some help..some support.

but I know that I already have all of the support I need right within me...within the choices I make..

...not to mention the millions of spirits and angels,
and connection with the god within me, to call upon for support.

hi. 4..8.07 easter sunday..

author note: this is an old journal entry from my many notes on life. There is a lot of catching up I would like to do with this blog....The following are some thoughts, feelings regarding my expereince as a human on planet earth:

4..8.07 easter Sunday..

The consciousness on the earth, within humanity, is a collective of energy. Ideas. thoughts.

That mass of consiousness, or god, or creation, is growing in Power.....This power is evolving.

As we evolve in our understandings, This Thing we call GOD is expanding. The Light of My awareness is dissolving shadow, darkness.

The light is limited on earth, until humanity wakes from its dream of separation.
This power is coming to the earth in the form of enlightened, or self/aware human beings...living "gods". We are Creators.

There is no room for darkness in the presence of the power, the light.
this is why the world is currently experiencing pain.
the light is flushing out all of the darkness that has been built up in the human collective of consiousness.

Every dark idea, every last dark thought, every inkling to think or create from a place of darkness,
...Is now being experienced and then cleansed. Each Idea creates and is part of a belief system. It is through that belief system that we judge, analyze, create, and ultimately experience life. The Idea must be fully known, (experienced, then felt, to know whether or not the idea is inline with truth, goodness, love, god...this is true Knowing...because only that which is known, exists.) We are coming to a place of a higher and more TRUE KNOWING. We are coming to this place more and more, every time a human begins to seek truth, question reality, and begins finding answers.

I just finished crying....i felt the pain of The Separation that god is feeling each moment that passes when we, the human family is not connected in LOVE and therefore in Harmony. I felt the separation that I broadcast and exist within every moment that passes when I am living as if everything and everyone is separated....I guess I would feel like shit too if all of my body parts and cells were pulled apart and separated. This is why i cried...i FELT that Separation...like the REAL I, or I AM, or GOD, was in human form and feeling the pain that is created by the illusion of separation.

we cannot and will not become one human family, until we believe we are one human family. or, until I believe we are one human family. There exists separation on earth, because humans believe there is separation. I still have self doubt at times, lack of trust. We believe there is separation, because we are not going within to seek and find answers. When one seeks answers, one finds answers, one eventually is lead to Truth. TRUTH is the only real answer. the connecting force of Love.

Additionally, I have looked within only to find that I AM that energy. At the core of my being, lies this essence. It is from that essence, and by this essence that i exist as joel harris. I must change and correct my beliefs,... and then live by these beliefs, create a reality and world based on these beliefs. based on what I Know to be Truth.